Today my babies are small. Soft doughy thighs and beautiful round bellies. Running through the house with their shirts tucked under their chins screaming “Lala!” (Lucy’s word for belly). Their tummies pushed out with blissful pride. Today, they are enough. Strong and joyful and satisfied. Secure in their space in the world. All twenty-eight and [...]
Six months ago, at Lucy's one year checkup, our pediatrician told me I should move the girls into the same room. I looked at her, tired and incredulous, and asked if she was joking. She laughed, knowingly, and told me all parents tell her she's crazy but that if we already weren't getting any sleep [...]
I'm the least crafty person I know. Seriously, someone asked me if I made these adorable floral crowns the girls were wearing at Mia's party and I just laughed because, not if my life depended on it. But when it comes to birthday parties I get really into it. My mom always threw really crafty, [...]
My therapist tried to comfort me last week by telling me that it was important for my kids to see my faults and weaknesses. Learning that your parents are in fact human, he assured me, is easier to stomach in small measured doses, rather than a giant paradigm shift in those developmentally sensitive preteen years. [...]
I finally started going to therapy. I say finally because it's been 8+ years since I was last in therapy, battling an eating disorder I never imagined I could defeat. And then I did. Which is why I'm back in therapy. This time up against persistent anxiety that has been slowly eating away at my sanity, and my [...]
Last summer the Dixie Chicks, my most favorite band in the history of ever, came to Bangor, Maine. My mom and I wanted to go SO badly but I had a 5-month old baby and a toddler and nipples that leaked milk at even the thought of leaving said baby behind. Instead I sat at home [...]
It's so annoying how babies have to grow up. I mean I know I spent the last 12 months wishing Lucy would walk or talk or wipe her own ass - but then I'm like, WTF. I spent 10 months carrying you inside my stomach. Uterus. Whatever. Three of those months I spent puking out [...]
Welp...here we go again. Four plus weeks without a peep over here in mommy blogger land. I'd like to say that it's because I've been busy wrapping presents and baking cookies and making homemade fudge (OMG neighbors please stop making me look bad! But also please don't stop bringing us fudge...k? I promise I'm making [...]
I'm not exactly sure why breastfeeding matters so much to me. My knee jerk reaction is that my mom breastfed me, and because when it comes to motherhood I aspire to be as much like her as I can - naturally I wanted to breastfeed, too. But then I found out she only breastfed me for [...]
The fact that sleep deprivation is legitimately used as a form of torture is not at all surprising to any parent ever. What is slightly more concerning is that according to science, sleep deprivation can lead to all sorts of chronic health problems including weight gain, heart disease, hallucinations, impaired brain activity (maybe Donald Trump is in need [...]
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